I was so ready for a break. My break happened to be a long weekend getaway to Denver. Leading up to this trip I was sort of in a funk. Of course I was more than excited to see my friend who had moved there a few months earlier but I just wasn't quite feeling like myself. I had just found out I had another ulcer and the day before I left I got the flu. I was convinced this was a sign I would have to miss my trip which of course was not okay. And just so you can picture this I am the biggest cry baby when I'm sick. I remember I spent all day calling every one of my family members crying. I'm basically helpless and need someone to remind me what it feels like to not be sick. Dramatic right?
So the next morning I'm up at 2:30am for the earliest flight out of Milwaukee and feeling slightly better. But also highly paranoid that I will feel worse as soon as I'm on the plane. Luckily that didn't happen. Is anyone else an anxious flyer? I literally had to have Val hold my hand at take off because I immediately think the worst is about to happen. So this can be a little exhausting for anxious people. As soon as we landed though I felt this weird energy come over me. I'm not sure if it was the altitude sickness kicking in (kidding kidding) but I remember feeling like I could finally let out a big sigh. Like I could stop worrying so much. That I could start to enjoy myself and relax. Flu symptoms and all. I mean it obviously made it much easier since I was with two of my best friends who know me inside and out but I felt calm for the first time all month. The backdrop of the mountains didn't hurt either.
Let me tell you how much better that view gets when you are actually hiking up a mountain. We may have huffed and puffed all the way up (and stopped many times to catch our breath) but we made it. I know this sounds so cliche but you really feel so small when you are up there. It's a quick way to get some perspective. Don't get me wrong, things are not all rosey in my head. I'm not suddenly a different person because I hiked one mountain. And I'm not trying to make it seem like this solved all my problems. But in the moment it was like a cleanse for me. Like I could let out that breath I've been holding in for the past 9 months.
I haven't had the opportunity to travel a ton in my adult years but this was a special trip for me. It was a good reminder to get out of my routine and take a break from myself. Which sounds worse than what I mean but sometimes it's the best medicine to just get out of your own head. For me it's the constant overthinking and the what ifs. And it's hard to pump the brakes on those spinning thoughts when they become so part of your normal routine. So for me it was so helpful to change my scenery, change my routine, and remind myself to relax.
But even beyond all of this, Denver had so much to offer. This city is really amazing. I had the most fun night out in downtown Arvada, shopping in Boulder and then shopping in the most boujee mall in Denver, eating at the best deli in Golden, also eating endless apple pie, and the list goes on and on and on. I'm planning on putting together a must do list for a trip to Denver so stay tuned because this really was one of the best trips I've had. You've got my heart Denver.
PS: I'm also realizing that today is #worldmentalhealthday . Seeing the posts all over social media is really therapeutic for me. I love to read what others are experiencing and how I can learn from someone else's journey. Even just seeing a community of others showing support for one another is important. It's also a good reminder that we have so much control over our own lives. That we have the power to create an environment for our personal mental health that feels healthy and fulfilling – just as we would do with our physical health. And it helps us feel more okay to start a conversation about it. Let's cheers to that!